Counting Down

One down. Three to go.
Easiest one out of the way.
Now it only gets harder.
Plus, tennis...isn't over.
I thought it would be over
after league finals.
turns out i was wrong.
very wrong. i still have
practice. but no games until
after APs? practice is still
going to tire me out, and
take away precious study time.
i doubt i'm even going to be
playing in the CIF games.
i'm most likely going to be an
alternate. i really want that
CIF ring though. :]
but...it's still strange.
I don't feel any pressure to
study right now. it doesn't
really feel like AP season...
compared to last year...
and i only had 1 AP last year.
is something wrong with me?
maybe there's just too much
stuff going on right now.
i wish i could just cut back on
some things, but it's impossible.
however, i just know im going
to feel extremely relieved once
all of this is over. i really should
focus on grades, and i'm going
to try my hardest to concentrate.

i shall continue to think about
all of this stuff later. for now...
ill have all my goals as my
motivation for getting through
all of this...

7 days and counting. :]

Hell Weeks?

Next two weeks are gonna be hectic to no end.
Next two weeks =
- 4 AP tests
- League Finals
- Family leaving
- Cerritos College final
AHHHHHHH! these few months have just flown by.
i still wish i could control time, so everything wont
be as stressful. wishing wont get me anywhere though.
the day of the last AP test signals the day im free. :]

4 AP tests - omggg stresssssssss. majority of my stress
is coming from here. im scared i might blank out during
the test and get 1's. it's a horrible feeling. and it won't go
away. i'm. so. screwed. math i guess it's decent. chem...
im dead. more than dead. APUSH....i can't remember much
right now. and AP Lang...i dont feel as though i really learned
anything that would be useful for the test.

League Finals - not that much stress. but im going to be
missing a lot of class. missing two AP classes that day.
RIGHT BEFORE AP TESTING. if only it was on a different
day. Missing APUSH and AP Lang. I need the help for those
two classes. and i don't want to mess up for league finals.
I can't mess up. not now. if i do, im most likely going to get
kicked off of the team.

Family leaving - seems like it went by really fast. i know im
going to miss them later. kinda. sorta. but yeah. this past week
they've been out the whole day, and it's going to be weird once
they're gone. things will be...too quiet. and that'll be on my
mind a lot. especially during the AP tests. my mind tends to
wander during long tests...

Cerritos College Final - gah. i hate this class. its so pointless for
me. and it counts for my gpa. i dont really do well in this class
because im not musically inclined. honestly, me + music does not
mix. ever. in any way. i have more important things to worry
about, and i'd rather not have this bs class take up space and time
for me.

Everything seems to revolve around APs. It's ridiculous. I hate it.
but it'll be worth it. I guess. I hope. Once everything is over, i'll
have some kickback time. :D really looking forward to that.

To do list after APs:
- Movie nights.
- horror
- comedy
- action
- old school disney movies :D
- random
- Beach hangout?
- Go back to Dragonauts. (my back hurt so i couldnt go to the race)
- Chill out with everyone.
- Sleep in my own room again! :D (and hopefully get my comp back)
- Pig out time with everyone.
- Days where i can just hang out the whole day.
- :]
- Getting back in shape outside of Dragonauts
- Learn to cook.

Im excited. :]
for after APs.